Wow, it's been almost a month since my last blog post! My last blog post was written the day before I left for Orlando for my first visit since coming back to Arkansas. I had such a good time! The first week, my college friends Courtney, Megan, and Andrea came to Orlando and we all had a mini vacation in the place where our friendship first began. This has been a rough year for all four of us so we all needed that time together. We went back to a lot of our old hang outs, including New Smyrna Beach, Cowboys, and Chick Fil A. Mostly, we just laughed and tried to leave our problems behind so we could just have fun together, which we did! I also spent two nights on the beach in Daytona with Mom, went back to the church where Dave and I got married, visited with Corky who married us and did Dave's service, got to have dinner with a few people who knew Dave from Carillon church, visited Disney and Universal, hung out with my Universal friends and went to the entertainment Woody awards, and spent the last few nights with my in laws. There were definitely some bittersweet moments and I didn't know how I would handle some of those. As I anticipated, those hard moments were soon followed by feelings of peace and contentment knowing that I would soon be back in this place that I call home and surrounded by these people who love me and want to help me as much as they can. Going back will not be easy, it will be hard but I'm confident that in the long run, it will be the best thing for me.
I also had two auditions while I was down there. One of them didn't go so well and the other one seemed to go very well. I did my monologue for the casting directors and they all laughed a lot, which is always a good sign. That makes two possibilities for a job so far, including that Disney audition I had in Chicago! There are one or two others coming up at the end of July, at the same time that I will be visiting Orlando again. I hope that these auditions popping up is a sign that doors are opening slowly for me! I have to at least have some seasonal or part time work when I move back down. While I'm in Fayetteville, I do have some work going on with a local childrens' theatre so I'm slowly getting back into working again. I can't go backwards and have no job or work when I get back to Orlando, it'll drive me nuts! So if anyone hears of any other auditions for shows, theme parks, dinner theatres, etc, let me know! I'm open to just about anything that involves acting, singing, and not too advanced dancing :)
These past few months and few weeks of auditioning has really taught me a major lesson: I'm SOOOOO not in control of my life. I always knew that I wasn't but a part of me thought that maybe God would allow me to take the reins from time to time. Well He definitely likes to be more of the control freak but let's face it, He knows what He's doing, He's allowed to be. I had one day last week that I became very discouraged because I wanted to go back down to Orlando for Halloween Horror Nights auditions at Universal and it looked like I was going to miss them. So I prayed that God would calm my heart and just let the doors open as He saw fit. The next morning, I got a text from my mom saying that she came across the Universal audition page and she noticed that the auditions were taking place over a period of three weeks, not three days. The last day to audition would be July 30, the same time that I'm going to be in town!!!! I don't know if I'll get cast or not but what a God thing that was! Times like those show me that if I just literally let go and let God do His work, things will fall into place! I can worry like crazy or I can put my trust in Him and do the David Adams way of life and just take things one step at a time. Even if none of these auditions work out, God has something planed for me. I know for sure that He is calling me back to Orlando so I'm confident that He will not send me down there and not give me a job of some sort.
That same day I signed up for the HHN auditions, I was reading my devotion in Jesus Calling and one particular part stuck out to me. It said "You will never be in control of your life circumstances but you can relax and trust in My control. Instead of striving for a predictable safe lifestyle, seek to know Me in greater depth and breadth. I long to make your life a glorious adventure but you must stop clinging to old ways. I am always doing something new within My beloved ones. Be on the lookout for all that I have prepared for you." I don't think it can get much clearer than that :)
Knowing me and knowing that God made me adventurous for a reason, my life is going to be one crazy rollercoaster full of unexpected turns and twists. It already has been and while there's a few twists that I didn't like, life always turns around and goes back uphill eventually. I realized recently that God tends to send some of these twists and turns my way much sooner than I expect. I'm guessing He probably does that to test me to see if I'll really let go and rely on my faith alone. He very well might do that this time but He might decide to switch it up and make me stew a little. Either way, I'm content that His way is perfect and His plan for my life is going to be one that's extremely crazy and unpredictable. And you know, I don't think I'd have it any other way :)
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